The Beginning of My Self Discovery

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Two months ago I decided to take a leap of faith and fulfill my dream of studying abroad and just a week ago I was on a flight to Barcelona, Spain to live this dream out. Going into this, I didn’t know what to expect. A few weeks prior to this trip my life was falling apart and I left with so much baggage. Things were messy to say the least and the thought of leaving the country at such a dark place in my life scared me to death. I second guessed my decision of even going, to the point where I found myself contemplating on cancelling this trip all together but for whatever reason, I decided to go through with it and as I’m writing this blog in Cafe Pans, located in Las Ramblas, the busiest part of Barcelona, I couldn’t be happier with my decision.

I’m ready for this new adventure in my life. A fresh start. An opportunity for self growth. To be completely honest, the main reason why I even considered studying abroad in the first place is because I wanted to find myself. I know, it sounds so cliche. Another college student in her 20’s who wants to “find herself” ? But there I was, blessed with an unbelievably strong support system, good health, and everything else you could possibly need to live a happy life, yet I still wasn’t happy and I mean genuinely happy with myself and because of this I made reckless decisions time after time, all of which have caught up to me. So many regrets with so little consideration of the consequences of my own actions. I needed an opportunity to fix my wrongs and figure out the type of person I want to be and the life that I want to live from here on out. It sounds so naive to depend on one trip to fix all of my problems but something’s telling me this adventure is what I need. I’m ready to find that missing piece of my life in Barcelona.