Self Destructive

I don’t let people in.

I crave to be heard but I never give people the chance to listen. I crave love but I never allow myself to be vulnerable with anyone. I crave intimacy but I run away at any sign of tenderness towards me. I crave affection but I can never let my walls down long enough to let someone in. I crave consistency but I distance myself the moment things go wrong. I desperately crave to be understood but I never let anyone truly get to know me, every aspect of me.

I don’t let people in and as a result, I continue to feel alone.

I guess I just have a bad habit of pushing people away when I need them most.